Over the past week, I have been spending time each day studying different attributes of God. Today, I meditated on God’s goodness.

“I will praise you forever for what you have done; in your name I will hope, for your name is good.” -Psalm 52:9

This stuck with me throughout the day almost as if it was preparing me for the email I would receive late this afternoon. The email from my adoption agency stating that the Ministry of Gender and Family Promotion is expected to stop accepting new dossiers after August 31st as they have signed the Hague Treaty and are restructuring their adoption processes.

Our dossier was expected to make it to Rwanda a week or two after that. Unfortunate timing, indeed.

I wasted no time in calling my caseworker and the Rwandan Embassy. Essentially, it’s not looking good, but we’re going to hold tight until next week to see what goes down. I had a nice ugly cry for about ten minutes and have since calmed down enough to come to these understandings:
1. God is good.
2. If we cannot adopt from Rwanda, we will transfer to the Ethiopia program. We will have to re-do some of our paperwork, but it would be doable.
3. It is so stinkin hard to let God be God sometimes. But I choose to believe that He is in control of all things and that He knows who and where our little boy is.

Honestly, I feel so completely volatile right now as I sit and do nothing, waiting to see if our Rwandan adoption is still a possibility or if we’re about to take a giant leap backwards to put together a brand new dossier. Pray for us and for the sweet Rwandan children waiting for families.

“For the Lord is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.” -Psalm 100:5

11 Comments on changes, the unknown, and God’s goodness

  1. my heart hurts reading this, catherine. i'm so sorry! i totally get what you're saying about how hard it is to let God be God. he really is good though. praying for you all!

  2. Dear Allison,
    Don't worry- I was the same way too. I was sobbing uncontrollably for about 10 minutes before I collected myself, phoned our lawyer in Kigali and phoned Community Services. The Rwandan Embassy in Canada is unfortunately not open for another hour yet, but they will be next.
    Have faith- don't give up on Rwanda yet:) It seems totally unreasonable to stop dossiers that are already at the embassy stage, with such short notice.
    The bonus is our lawyer in Kigali says that adoptions are flying now and hopefully, if they do accept our dossiers, it will be quicker that anticipated. Praying and hoping for all the families at our stage that it will be positive, and all of those who were at earlier stages that they are not discouraged in adoption.

  3. God has so clearly been present and in control of your journey so far that I know he will continue to provide…even if we don't understand the ways in which he decides to do that.

    I've had the hymn, Day be day running through my head this week, and seems to be a relevant prayer:
    Day, by day dear lord of these three things I pray: to see thee more clearly, love thee more dearly, follow thee more nearly day by day.

    Y'all are in my prayers, Catherine.

  4. I am praying, constantly, that we all get in. Oh God my Father, hear the requests of our hearts and allow our children to come home to us sooner than later. Please let our dossier be ready and accepted before the deadline.
    My heart hurts and it is so hard to not be anxious and to trust God fully/ know HE is in complete control. His plan for our families has been in place from the creation of the world and whatever He wills, will be done. So easier said than done!

  5. I hope the latest news is correct that the Embassy will process all dossiers already there and MIGEPROF will accept them by the approval letter date from the Embassy. You are SO close…fingers tightly crossed for your family!

  6. call me simple minded. i prefer to look at this as a page from where's waldo books. in this case, we are saying "where's wyatt?". but, he is there, hiding in some country or other. you WILL find him!

  7. I have to apologize Catherine- I called you 'Allison' in my comment- sorry- I am not thinking straight at the moment..as you well understand:) Feel free to call me Bob, Ted, Frank..whatever;)

  8. I have to apologize Catherine- I called you 'Allison' in my comment- sorry- I am not thinking straight at the moment..as you well understand:) Feel free to call me Bob, Ted, Frank..whatever;)

  9. Hollie, I wouldn't worry about. Even our Pastor who had known us previously for years married us Matt & Allison. 🙂

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